former conviction meaning in English

前案判罪

One more question , count , he said , to which i beg you , not as a future mason , but as an honest man galant homme to answer me in all sincerity : have you renounced your former convictions
“伯爵，还有个问题， ”他说， “我请求您并非作为未来的共济会员，而是作为一个老实人galanth omme ，诚心诚意地回答我，您是否抛弃您从前的信念，您是否信仰上帝？ ”
But if i can express at this distance the thoughts i had about me at that time , i was in tenfold more horror of mind upon account of my former convictions , and the having returned from them to the resolutions i had wickedly taken at first , than i was at death it self ; and these added to the terror of the storm , put me into such a condition , that i can by no words describe it
此时此刻，当我执笔记述我那时的心情，我感到，那时我固然也害怕死，使我更害怕的是想到自己违背了自己不久前所作的忏悔，并且又像在前次危难中那样重新下定种种决心，这种恐惧感比我害怕死更甚。当时的心情既然如此，再加上对风暴的恐怖，那种心理状态即使现在我也无法用笔墨描述。